The million $ question.

There's a question in my mind. It goes something like this... "Now that I have won the battle, will I win the war?". And what war am I talking about?... well the one that I fight every morning with myself when I have to wake up at about 5:45. For those uninitiated, since the past 2 days, I have been waking up really early with the intention of having a morning jog; and I am extremely happy to confess that I have been successful in achieving this... :). I know that my intentions are extremely noble... but, the million dollar question to ask is, "Will I continue to follow the routine that I've set for myself?". For my sake, let's hope that I do so. It's too late... must sleep... got to wake up early... bye.

I am Sam(son)

I sort of really bested myself today. I woke up at about 5:45, went to the gym, exercised for about 1 hour and came back feeling all ready and charged up for my classes. Oh! and by the way did I mention that today's classes got bunked? (It wasn't my fault anyway... I guess the guys just didn't want to attend any today). This exersise thing has really got some serious potential after all and so, even if it's as funny as it sounds, I've decided that I'll get up in the morning and atleast go for a run everyday. It's got a real "heavy duty feel-good factor" to it too. There's nothing much else to write about today and its about 12:30 already (very late considering my new schedule) . So, I have to go and sleep. I'll be signing off now....good night.

Somewhere... I belong

Somewhere I belong
Linkin Park

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today...

Mood : ________

P.S. : I thank 'Linkin Park' for their music and their songs, which I am sure many people identify with.

Of the Grill Chefs' elite...

Waah! this morning I discovered a bloody virus on my brand new OS (I'll have to take care of it soon, else It'll f*** up my system resources pretty bad). Well apart from that initial piece of bad news, the rest of the day was simply fabulous. Guess what! we had a barbeque picnic planned for the day. We towed our stuff over to the picnic spot, which was a place located near the hostel (JFTR, the place was called Sikharchandi... its about 2.5 kms away from our hostel). Once we got there, the grill was set in position and a functional equivalent of an oven was constructed. Getting the whole afffair up going was a pretty uphill task (literally)... but in the end we did prevail. Before today, I hadn't even boiled chicken ever in my life... but now, there I was!!! an "Assistant Chef" to Jojo for the first 3 rounds of grilled chicken; and soon I was promoted to the elite position of the "Chief Chef" for the remaining rounds. After a few initial mistakes, I managed to get the hang of it and the chicken did turn out quite well (although a wee bit blacker than expected). Being the grill cook sure does have its advantages... you get to have a position of power in front of the grill with many 'underlings' at your beck and call, you get to eat the food hot, and usually a lot of the food is leftover which you have at your disposal. Now whoever said that being the cook is the best job around is obviously not aware of its negative implications which include burnt fingers, and a pronounced lack of attention towards other dishes (as the cook is often too busy to taste the other dishes which are not his charge). but that comes with the job and it would have done me no good to complain. I would never have thought that I'd ever say this, but despite the burnt fingers and the signed hair, I really enjoyed the cooking part. Well... all being said and done, for me, the picnic was a very enjoyable experience which I am not likely to ever forget. After all, this was my first barbecue with my friends (and I got to play cook too!). I really hope that we have more of such plans for the future. I'm kind of getting sleepy now... so I guess i'll have to go. Good night.

Mood : Contented

P.S. : Oooh! my poor fingers!!!

The second day

Yeppie! it's day 2 and my computer's still going strong. Now, the reason why I am so excited about my comp. is because it took about 6 tries, 4 WinXP CDs, 2 CD drives, 2 hard disks and a whole lot of time and patience to get it up and working again. I don't think I have to explicitly specify how satisfying it felt when I finally did it. Well, getting back to the day's deeds, I had a really good time at a nice little restaurant with the rest of ICDCIT team. The food was good and the company even better. I even got to see a couple of my old schoolmates over there. The evening was spent playing 'Commandos 2' with Sandi. Coincidentally, the poor guy has his birthday tomorrow (i.e. on the 11th) and we people at the hostel, have a very jolly concept of the "Birthday Bash" (now, I am quite sure that this needs no further explanation). So as I was saying, the poor guy is going to have a very 'robust' experience tonite at 12, which is bound to leave some long lasting impressions on his mind (and on his body). Btw, I'll have go now and wish him while he's still able to appreciate it. Signing off now... bye. :)

Mood : Satisfied

P.S. : Man! they've already started tossing him around... gotta go or else i'll miss it.

Chapter 2

Aah! It sure does feel good to be back at the blogging board again. Its been quite a long time since my last blog... about 8 months I think. I feel really sorry to have missed out writing about all those great experiences that I have had in those past 8 months. There was this stay at Calcutta, German classes, the ICDCIT meet, spring-fests at IIT Kgp and NIT Rkl and many more things that I will remember all my life. Some of them have taught me lessons that I will remember throughout my life and others, have simply been times when I have had a whole lot of fun.Now, while it is understandable that every day might not be as interesting as some of the experiences that I've had, I'll try my best to pen down each day as well as I can... after all, there's not many days left for the end of this semester. Man! thinking that always makes me sad :((. Well, I have to go now... so good night.

A floating thought of mine : (sounds all philosophical I know but these thoughts are my own.)

I’ve been living in the hostel for about 3 years now and I can assuredly claim that I have got to observe a great many things about human nature during my time here, including a lot about myself. This is supposed to be my final semester at college and therefore my last at the hostel too. I'd like to pen down some of the thoughts that I have been having during my stay here.

"This place has taught me many things about life; things that I could never have learnt if I were at home. There have been people in my life who have shown me a lot about the world. They have opened it up to me, either knowingly or unknowingly. Some of them have been friends, and others acquaintances. I have always prided myself on being able to look at both sides of a coin and on being able to observe people, their actions, and their reactions. I’ve seen people love, and I’ve seen them hate. I’ve seen people stick to their morals and also betray their own principles. I have seen them and their priorities change, friends becoming enemies and enemies, friends. Life here has been like a great big colorful carnival where every human is psychologically unique. Each person that I have interacted with has taught me some thing or the other about the human psyche and most important of all, about myself. I sincerely hope that I will continue to learn what I have been learning here and that I am able to put to use this knowledge, when necessary. "

Mood : Thoughtful

P.S. : I'll make a sincere effort to stick to my resolutions this time.

42 and counting...

Good morning India! Its 8:00 AM and I am awake already. Woah! a welcome change... but no time to enjoy it cause if I do, dear mom will leave without me (why do moms have to be soooo strict 'bout time?). So... I finally made it to me hostel in time for college. Now just imagine this - I go to college all charged up and feelin good about attending classes... and suddenly I find this big
crowd of students mobbing 'block B'! The reason? something to do with the marksheets. So classes were liberally bunked, and I went back to doing the one thing that I had to do. Level up my character some more. Say... I got my 'Mage' character to level up to 'Base lvl 42 - Job lvl 31' i
kinda overdid my self today... played for a "tad it longer" than usual. People are gonna be very
very annoyed wit me :D. So I 'd better sleep off early tonite. Good Nite.

Mood : Satisfied

P.S. : Gotta get Smokie card and Vitata card any how.

Dissapointment.

Hello again... Damn! I missed classes again. Why? 'cause I got up at 2:00 AM... and do I learn anything from this? I think not. I marched off again to the reading room to get some more of Ragnarok. Anyway, I went inside a guild's castle (FightClub) today. Guess what happened? Some "Uber Wizzy" Storm-gusted me before I could say 'WoE'. Damn it! I was just trying a simple Frost-driver on him. Now, I know people can be this ridiculous. Btw I can hunt Argiopies now (Yay!)... YES!!! 2 shots and they are history. Now that is what I call a stisfactory achievement. I shall finally have my revenge! BTW only 4 guild members were present today, so we had to call off the 'Castle seige' :(. Well... coming back to the real world, my big plans for a date got "smothered" as she had some serious problems. She told me about them. I wouldn't dicuss them here. Anyway, I wish her all the best and we shall see what the fates have in store for me.

Mood : Somber

P.S. : I have nothing to say.

Let's Rok!

Hey Sorry I couldn't write yeaterday. I was with some friends having a discussion on some common subjects of interest. I started playin 'Rok again. It was a good day today. I got lucky... really lucky. See, I found an elder willow card (probability of drop if I hunt only elder willows is
.01%) for my mage. I played for 7 hrs today. I wonder if I should reduce my playtime :. I think
I should. My guild has decided to try for a castle tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

Mood : Receptive

P.S. : I saw source (my GM) for the first time... :)).

2 Fast 2 Furious.

Aahh...how I love holidays!!! Well speaking of holidays, today was one. I don't know why, but today was one. So it was the usual waking up at 12:00 AM (well I did sleep at 7:30 AM, didn't I?). Hmm... I felt like studying some OpenGL today (My! don't i sound like a knowledgeble person?). So, I got hold of Sammy, pestered him for the book and finally got it (Yay!). I haven't started coding yet but I will soon in a day or two. The rest of the day was quite uneventful... the real show began at night. I was watching a movie ('2 Fast 2 Furious'), when Iwas interrupted. Some stupid 1st year guy had pissed off some of our guys and so, it was WAR! The students were quite agitated. We got out onto the lawn and Shastri (our placement officer) had to come in the middle of the night to diffuse the situation. Fat lot of good it did... Hah! The 3rd year guys (i.e. us) have decided to impose the "freshers' dress code" on the entire 1st year. Its time they learnt their lesson and showed us some respect.

Mood : Cold

P.S. : It's getting too hot! Gotta cool off.

Late Goodbye

Bah! nothing much to talk about today. I got up at 12:00 AM (I still have no idea why I HAD to sleep that long). So I missed the first 3 classes although I managed to do the rest of the classes. We had 'Networking lab' for those last 3 periods. It was kind of interesting. Hey! know what? Sayan Mohanty, treated us at the 'Rice Bowl' tonight. The food was quite good. After that we came back to the hostel and had a few rounds of Quizzing. I normally enjoy these quiz sessions. But due to the presence of some unwanted (read stupid, patronizing and callous) people in tonight's session, my mood was completely ruined. I really and sincerely hope that I won't have to face this situation again. Well... I gotta go now coz its quite late (4:30 AM to be precise). So it's gonna be a "Late Goodbye " for me tonight. Signing off...

Mood : Grumpy

P.S. : Soumya went off to Rourkela today evening. Shook off abt 200 bucks off him :)).

Is this it?

Waaa!! I wanted to attend all of my classes today, and I couldn't :(. Reason??? I overslept! Why does this have to happen to me every time I think of getting back on track? (Well technically speaking I was never on the track... he he). Well I'll let bygones be bygones. Hey! guess what happened today? Sandi suddenly comes up to me and says that he has told her (YES!!! there is a 'her' in my life even though only prospective) everything that I had felt for her before. Now ain't that intrusive and stupid of him? But the strange thing is that I don't seem to mind. Dunno... guess that was what I had wanted all along, for her to get a hint of my feelings. Gawd! I'm slipping!!! Sandi also told me some things about her (he is her DSP lab partner u see.) which I had so idiotically misinterpreted before. From what I was told, I infer that she is a very practical person. The date's ( well not exactly a date) set for this Sunday. I ain't tellin her anything right away. I'll have to try and be a good friend first... let time take it's course. Hope for the best and wish me luck people.

Mood : Thoughtful

P.S. : I dunno whether to thank you or to hit you a******* (Sandi).

Baptism through... Attendance????

Eehaw!!! I attended classes today! I can now proudly say that I have done a full day's college without missing a single classin the 6th sem. . Well, you see the trick is quite simple. What you gotta do is get up at around 10:00 AM and finish your ablutions. This gives you plenty of time to get to the college by 11:00 AM. That, is supposed to be the easy part... what follows is... the... well, the slightly tricky part. Now this is to be carried out only after a careful study of the teacher's character and traits (it involves details like mood, mentality, and lastly the height of the "subject" in question). This step involves getting out of the class just before the concerned teacher arrives and staying out for about the first 40 minutes of the class (One may do whatever he/she pleases to during these 40 minutes); then make up an infallible excuse with a good alibi and hey presto... instant moksha! (from the monotonous ramblings of the teacher). All that remains is entering, stating the excuse (only if asked), sitting and responding to your roll-call. There... you have just attended all classes and you are still not asleep at the end of the day. I would surely like some comments on this bombastic plan of mine. Me gotta go now and install Fedora on me comp. Write to me will ya? BTW Sammy's back and he has a new mouse.(Yay! he wont take mine ever again:) )

Mood : Happy, Elated

P.S. : Dude/Dudess I've attended only 2 out of 15 classes in ADIS... gotta attend more of college now. :

ILUG-BBSR thingy.

9:00 AM and someone's already jumping all over me!!! (That doesn't happen usually till 10:00 AM). Ok, fine! I'm awake. Guess what? It's a Sunday today and I gotta go, attend the ILUG-BBSR meet (aah... that explains the rudeness involved in wakeing me up). Reached there at about 10:10 AM... so the girls had beaten us to it. Well "wadever". The meet was pretty soporofic and boring though (except the part where Lalit gave his talk). It got over at about 12:00 AM and we all came back. The hostel had kind of an empty feel about it. Oh right... today was the "Birla Infotech Campus Recruitment Drive". Had my lunch and had a good sound sleep till about 6:30 PM (phew! I wonder if I will be able to sleep at all at night). That Birla thingy I was talking about today, well Ankit Choudhry got through. The guy deserved it and I'm quite happy for him. There was some bad luck in store for some people though. I wish them all the best for the future companies.

Mood : Variable

P.S. : Why don't I ever get the Linux CD's when I need them?

Gimme red!!!

Stupid... stupid... stupid. Morning was at 12:00 AM for me today... heh! It was the second day of the "Caritor Recruitment Drive". So there were no classes today (well, we did have a teeny-weeny role in getting our classes suspended... all we had to do was not attend classes... lol). It wasn't a very good day for KITS. Hmmm... I don't know why I have been feeling kind of dull lately. Maybe it's the weather... maybe as Sandi says it's one of the effects of not having a girlfriend... or maybe I just need to involve myself in doing somthing fruitful rather whiling away all of my time. I guess I'll have to contend with the 3rd possibility (mainly because it does NOT involve getting a girlfriend :D). Gotta go now, play a game of AoE.

Mood : Sloshy

P.S. : I will consider the 2nd possibility too... i.e. if I get time :))

Caritor... or Carrot??

Got up at about 11:30 AM. I was wondering if I again missed classes today... when I saw a very jumpy looking Pandeyji getting ready in formals... tie and all. Then it kind of struck me - today was the first day of the "Caritor Recruitment Drive". This was the company about which many rumors had been forged. Lore had it that it was a company that gave a stipend of Rs 3000 to its prospective employees... and that it would pay them a WHOPPING amount of 5 lakhs per annum!!! Alas, the rumors turned out to be false... but nonetheless it does give them a salary of Rs 3.5 lakhs per annum which to say, is quite a... well, satisfying amount :p. I had gone to college and I managed to bump into some old school mates (The campus drive was an off-campus thingy). Caught up with a few things and had a nice time chatting with them. Most of my friends managed to get through the written test. Hey, Pandeyji got through. I really don't think that there would have been a better gift that he could have received for his birthday :). Hope he makes it all the way 'cause he deserves it (I've seen very few cool headed guys such as him). So, let me call this a day (well it actually is day already... lol). Signing off for now.

Mood : Sombre

P.S. : Somu got some great pair of cargos today and they fit me too... Muhahaha >:)

Sandi gets morose.

Woke up at 6:30 AM today. I know this sounds scary but fikar not... for I was at home :p and I had some work at the passport office. So I had to get there at about 7:30 AM... BTW the counter opens up at 10:30 AM (the timing was my dear mom's bright idea). Any way it served its purpose 'cause I was the first in line and by 11:00 AM, I was home. I had a nice nap and it was back to hostel then. Sandi was kinda morose with me 'cause operation "Get-girlfriend" (which he had so meticulously designed for me) was a no-go :-. Anyway I don't have much to write about today... thinking of having an early sleep tonite.

Mood : lalala...

P.S. : I really don't like it when people are morose with me.

All hail the Blog

Hi! Iwould consider this blog to be my first step before any sort of a literary endeavour in the future. It sure does feel kind of cool and geeky to sit in front of my computer and let the world know what I have been upto and been through. Nice thing this Blog... Na?

So... lets talk bout my day today, shall we? I usually wake up to find either Sandi or Soumya jumping up and down about me (to wake me up ofcourse... what did you think?). Ah... It was Sandi today. See i got this real bad addiction to computer games which makes me stay up late in the night and consequently i sleep till 10:00 AM (today it was 'bout 12:00 AM :D) which invariably leads to either of the two i mentioned above, jumping on and mauling me... and to think of it, I had a my dumb internal exams at 2:30 today. DCCN it was. Got some stuff up into my brain and by the time i reached the exam hall, I was facing a placid looking creature who was supposed to be my invigilator ( hah! as if they make any real difference). It was C2D all the way through the exam (hehe) with Ankit. Finished the paper in 40 mins. and got back to the hostel. Somehow I was feeling a bit low, so me and Sandi went to college to find some 'topics of interest' (now don't get any wrong ideas into your head); a debate ensued about if having a girlfriend would make my life any better. The debate was a dead end... cause then we got hungry and came back. Hmm... i wonder if having a girlfriend would really affect me in any way. Now, that remains to be seen.

Mood : Cynical

P.S. : Naah! I think that would be bad... for the girl... lol :))